There were some days I didn’t think was my best. I struggled with some sense and stability of insecurity. I was afraid I was too gone. Some of those days happened before I met you. Some happened after.
I didn’t know how much I was dependent on others around me.
So I walked thru the door, playing the messenger of my mom’s madness.
It was so weird how someone could tailor her insecurity.
Would you tailor mine?
Sunday. I want to make a playlist from all the aged emails I have from Spotify. I think I’ll do it sometime this summer on YouTube because I get a lot of boredom these days!
Hello, it’s Jocelyn. Nothing has really been happening. I’d like to go to school in the fall semester, but it’s been difficult to apply. Today I didn’t have to think very much, which is great actually. I feel sick though.
It is my fault, my only one I think. Maybe I should’ve waited to go west to get my hair did. It’s very exhausting living a carefree life honestly.
Sunday. TDH & I went to Warped Tour. This was when it was called the First Midwest Bank Ampitheatre. This was in summer sometime in 2014 and I don’t know why I went because I had a ticket, and ‘cause I was emotional af.
Sunday. Emily Bergan, a member, and I went to Lollapalooza a few years ago. 2013, and ’14 I think. Lollapalooza is traditionally a three year festival in Grant park, usually at the beginning of August. I can’t remember if I partied for one or two years. I’m not really sure why I went, truely. I was able to attend for free, due to unforseen circumtances, but I don’t realize where I was really at with going to a festival when I couldn’t cope with what I am.
It’s Jocelyn! Today I had a lot to comer in the city. I went out in the afternoon becaus3 I really wanted a mint chocolate chip shake this morning. Yum!!
I felt less anxious with security I’ve been having, and hope readers gain a greater understanding outside of themselves. I love focusing on what I do get with each pancake I swallow each morning.
I ordered half a dozen too– they were soo fluffy! I love the special Dunkin’ Donuts has on their drinks.
And I sometime don’t realize how I’m quick to impact some interactions I have with each person I talk to[o]..Thought: Mayne stepping back and appreciating what we remain to outsource opportunity to anything greater than we could understand is super comprehensible, and perhaps, able to mediate any negativity in action?? Maybe…
It’s Jocelyn! I had two templates of temporary tattoos laying on a table. I’m at home! It was like 3:34 when I started. I treated myself to iced coffee and cigars so I found some way to display independence.